Aleeeve :)

2008-07-22T14:14:00.003+08:00

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you

I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through

But I can't go on this way.

I've got to stop it babe

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me.

I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted youI've been pushing hard to open up the door

Trying to take us back to where we were before

But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore'Cuz we can't be mended,

so let's stop pretending now

We've been walking around in circles for some time

And I think we should head for the finish line

So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted youI, I.. I'm so sorry baby

But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave

But I, I'll always remember how we came close..to being how I wanted to be

I wanted you baby

I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deepI wanted you, I wanted you. . . .

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

2008-07-15T19:44:00.002+08:00

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, im sorry that i went on hiatus YET again. HAHAHA. i'm so darn lazy to update.well, i went to secondary school today to collect my testimonial and i can tell you my form teacher seriously chipping balls sia.whatever she wrote was plain bulll shit. HAHAHAHA!

alif is a polite,positive and respectful boy who takes pride in his neat attire.
he relates well with his peers in class activites and socials.
alif shows a keen desire to learn,he is self-disciplined and stands up for what is right.
as a student,he completed his assignments and handed them in on time.
he is willing to share positive outcomes and experiences with others in order to encourage them to be more involved in community work,
alif too served responsibly as a class chairperson in 2007.

i told you she was seriously bullshitting. HAHHAA!

cookie monster.

2008-07-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

oh well, somebody asked me to blogggggg.heh heh!
this pakcik serious have something against me.
i seriously don't know what he has against me.
did i insult him or something? no?
he somehow has this target on my ankles.
tsk tsk,fcuk him.

Turn the lights off in this place

And she shines just like a star

And I swear I know her face

I just don’t know who you are

Turn the music up in here

I still hear her loud and clear

Like she’s right there in my ear

Telling me That she wants to own me

To control me

Come closer

i tried.

2008-07-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

It's sad, so sad.

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad.

Why can't we talk it over.

Oh it seems to me.

That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

im sorry.

truly sorry.

i could never be the one.

blame me,i can understand.

once again.im sorry.

2008-07-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

sorry guys but i seriously can't help but put this pictures up.and mind you guys the first picture is the lecturer.his ass power or what? hahahahah! and tsu haw,go to bed early mayne.like seriously. and to sum up today,VB,MATHS really make my life difficult):

Maybe we're trying

Trying too hard

Maybe we're torn apart

Maybe the timing Is beating our hearts

We're empty. . .

psst.

2008-07-02T01:12:00.003+08:00

my dear,lovely,adorable part time gf wants me to blogggggg. ((:
i think i seriously gone nuts over love songs.idk why i keep listening to them nowadays.
i think i need to go slow with it like seriously.
gf gf, i won't cheat on you.and you better not cheat on me or i'll slice of your babats and feed it to my fishes.hahahaha!

You said it wasn't Gonna be like It was before.

Then it happened again Pushing me back Out the door

Thought it would be For real this time.

Love me forget About the signs .

So now what do I doNow, that I know That we're through.

Wish that I Could move on.

Can't let go It's too strong.

Just like that And then you're gone.

Is this how You wanted it to be?

Everything you had to say,Sent the tears Right down my face.

Now I'm trying to escape The misery.

Why don't you love me.

The way I loved you.

It feels so crazy Cause I dunno What I did to you.

If you're gonna hurt me Then do it quickly.

Cause I'm tired of cryin' If you don't wanna Stick around.

Then, baby Forget about me):

falling out ):

2008-06-29T19:47:00.004+08:00

Been sitting thinking about you

and I and wondering why were not getting along

so frustrated 'cause what we had was a happy home.

I don't know what the situation is but I can tell in the way we kiss

we don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you

like you don't appreciate all that I do

.you gotta show me that you want me to stay

don't turn & walk away

baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you.

I don't know what to do,how did we end up here this way?

what are we gonna do?I'm slowly falling out..

baby we're tripping on silly things

boy I need you to meet me halfway,if you want me to be with you..

I remember when, I'd be with my friends

you checked on me and made time to call but how things have changed?

now I don't hear from you at all.Yeah yeah yeah.

don't let your pride get in the way,for something we worked so hard

don't throw it away I've been tryna make you see everything you need is right here with me Slowly falling slowly falling

How did we end up here this way?

OhSlowly falling slowly falling

How did we end up here this way?ohhhh ))):

somehow you will never get to know how i feel about you.

i really don't

2008-06-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

mum,i really don't know what you expect of me.i thought you know me.you know i don't really mix with people who i don't really don't know right.then why do you still say that you're dissapointed with my attitude? you knw how fucking it hurts for you to say that?am i not be hypocritical if i were to be good to them then actually just like so-so behind them? and I'M NOT A HYPOCRITE. i won't do any of that.i don't really like them,just what is the problem with you? issit so difficult to understand? ive told you i mix more with friends rather than family and you said you understand and now you're going back on your words? just what do you want me to do? i seriously give up trying to match up with you in this problem.i swear i give up.

this is to whoever who is spamming my class blog,boy/girl. you've got NO idea who you're messing with.you better stop your nonsense or we WILL hunt you down.you better watch out.

Hate is a strong word

But I really really really don't like you

Now that it's overI don't even know what I liked about you

Brought you aroundAnd you just brought me down.

Hate is a strong word.But I really really really don't like you.

I really don't like you

reeeta's dooms day.

2008-06-28T00:12:00.002+08:00

finally, everyone agreeees to go off from reeta's class today. i told you guys you would definitely enjoy today.all i can say is that some people are born hypocrites and some are moulded into hypocrites.we all knw who yeah.i really don't know what you're trying to prove.issit that you wanna prove to us you're the best?when everyone knws your dirty laundry?come on laaaa,grow up please? wanna say you're not mature, you're older than me.how? i think my sister is much mature and wiser than you are.come man,wise up.we ain't small kids you can outthink.we actually can outthink you.we watched,get smart and played pool after that.we should do more of this lah actually guys.seriously today was fun.haahahah.

to dear wife chinyeeeeeeeeee, no matter how many guy problems you have you can count on me to help you out.but in the end,its up to you to make those decisions and make sure it works.don't rush things,slowly and surely you will find your man.your abang is here,don't worrrrry(:

to dear sister atyyy,i knw what you're going through now,as ive contemplated quitting now.it is a hard thing to do.but passion is something you need tons of energy to make it happen.if you feel you cannot provide that much high energy and drive,do what i do.take a break pull yourself back,think back how you can improve and make yourself better.no harm taking your time.whatever it is you knw me and mai got your back.keep your chins up african girl(:

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core (:

2008-06-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

im tired,and its like 1.27 am right now. football's in an hour's time and my eyes are half shut.what do you do? redbullllllllllllllllllll, coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and new psppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp =DD

ohh ohhh. welcome home granny.ily ohhhhh so much.
P.S someone suddenly had sense of fashion when she got back =PP

-i know you don't think that im trying.i know you thin down to the core.

2008-06-24T20:08:00.002+08:00

i declare today the worst day of my life. seriously,every just seem to not go my way today.from the time i woke up,i hate a huge headache, i hit my head on the door,i had to take a cab,since i was late,i reached school and today was science.fuck -_____-" and to make it worst it had everything to do with my least favourtie subject,chemistry. i was like what the fuck,what the hell was polymerisation? what the hell was carboxylic acids,hydrocarbons,alkane,alkene,blablabla! I THREW THAT BACK TO MRS WHELEN ALREADY WHY MUST IT COME BACK! if that wasn't enough my dear mabelin,accidentally spilled her water on my lappy,then it sipped to my psp,to my wallet,to my phone.phone,lappy,wallet was safe.but psp, haiya. it died on me.to think i once saved like an idiot to buy that thing,just makes it harder to swallow. today seriously is a fucking bad day.goddamit.

2008-06-23T19:48:00.002+08:00

i didn't go to school today,despite knwing i can't keep skipping school because of late night football.i don't know,something today just didn't feel right.did i do somwthing wrong? i feel something a part of me was missing,i felt as if something had ran away from me.but i just couldn't figure out what it was.maybe im getting sick or something i don't know but the feeling is especially unusual.sometimes i tell myself,do people despise me? do i always say the wrong things? am i that bad of a person? i seriously dn't know.life leaves you reeling sometimes. . .

2008-06-22T15:57:00.002+08:00

to you know who,

its nice being frends wit u. i really appreciate the chance to have known you. but love have never understand the meaning to force. i cant force my feelings to love someone i dont.like i told you,i can't really trust girls in a relationship nowadays. i could say i love you. but NEVER have i fallen in love with you. its 2 different meanings. jsut like how i love farawr. i treated you the same. dont shed a tear for me. if u really love me, learn to let go and not be too emotional. not tryna be harsh. but really, its not worth crying over a guy like me. no matter how hard u cried, even if i pity u, and i try to accept u in my life, even if i cudnt love u taht much, wouldnt it hurt u more? would u rather have that, or a haappier life wit someone else u might find soon.to be fair,i thought we could work something out.but you took it way too fast girl,we bare knew each other and im not willing to commit myself into someone who i barely even knw,you may say you understand me but actually you don't girl.its no point saying im sorry cause,no matter how much i say sorry,i know it wouldnt ease the pain ive inflicted.please,no matter what happens you're still a friend of mine.you can count on me for that.on a lighter note,ive decided to start blogging again(:

2008-05-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

FORZA MANCHESTER UNITED.

having the birthday bash next week and i really can't wait(:

wrss peeps,beep me for tha details,especially 4E5 crew.

apology session.

2008-04-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

this is my apology for those who may one way or another get neglected by me.im sorry for whatever reason im not able to be there and be the good friend that i should be.im sorry that i am that kind of a selfish bastard who never think of people who have been there for me.i know ive done you people wrong.i shall not mention names.but i know its my bad,and somehow imma make it work,imma make it up to you guys again.i'll think of something.i just wish that you guys will not have such negative mindsets about me no more,cause ive never and will never have the intention to chuck you guys aside.i will never do that.i just wish things wouldnt have to turn out this way but it did,maybe i changed like some of you guys claim.but don't people change time to time?im not gonna blame you guys cause i know its my fault.i failed terribly,i didnt manage my time well with you guys.i was not there when you guys needed me.imma useless friend.a sick asshole who doesnt remember his friends.im sorry guys i really am thinking of something to make it up to you guys,but i really don't know the best way to that solution.i really wish i can come out with the solution quick enough and turn back to the way things should be.once again, i'm sorry.

2008-04-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

bloody hell.hhahahaha! thanks to sharizan for that pciture.and i should have never told her about that drink.HAHAHA.im sorry lovelies for no updating often.laziness i guess? heh. well i shall update soon(:

very poor day.

2008-04-09T20:21:00.002+08:00

I swear i hate today.and i reallllllly mean HATE today.first things first,i woke up late? i was like why the fuck is the sun so bright at 7 am in the morning?i opened my eyes and realised it was like 8.20?! i was shouting and swearing at myself at home alone.i quickly showered and stuffs and quickly went out and took a cab to school.6 bucks for cab fare considering how near RP is to my home.school was fine.nothing really happened.after school was when the disaster'S started.i dropped my mouse infront like so many people at the interchange.while i was picking it up,i was like asking myself how the hell it fell out.NOW the best part,i don't know how i went asleeep while standing in the bus,suddenly the bus made a sharp turn,and i fell on my kneees and banged to this girl.i was so embarrased if i could meet the girl again i would definitely say a million apologies to her.HAHA.darn it i really felt ashamed sia.grrrr.

2008-04-07T21:49:00.002+08:00

well,first day of school sure was very eventful yet tiring.like seriesly i cannot imagine doing powerpoint slides all the way and doing them are actually detemining my grades to get myself to year two.my team members are cool.so yeah i have no problem working with them which is relief especially now i have to do work with them almost everyday.today we did contemporary issues and aesthetics which sounds so chim but is nothing different than social studies that we do during secondary school days.only that now you don't do source based questions and structured essay questions only now im doing both,but in powerpoint forms which sounds even more difficult than you think.especially with the presenting and stuff which makes it 87498237847328974239 times harder.Luckily my class mates are the kind who responses and doesnt look blankly into you when you talk.well i think i can live with them.HAHAHA.

TO CIARA: ya knw i cant be there that much now,like im busy with school now and my weekends are spent with either work or football.im sorry if i cant help much.

TO LIL ROM:im sorry if i dont spend as much time with our secondary school mates at our school, yeah you shouldnt think that ive forgotten you guys and stuff.I do have new friends thats for sho.but yeah you guys are still my good mates.don't worry.the way you reacted today like tore me apart sak.i knw you would say it was a joke but do you have any idea how ur reaction hurt me? im sorry bro :/

Can you tell meHow can one miss what she's never hadHow could I reminisce when there is no pastHow could I have memories of being happy with you boyCould someone tell me how can this beHow could my mind pull up incidentsRecall dates and times that never happenedHow could we celebrate a love that's to lateAnd how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost sharedI miss the love that was almost thereI miss the times that we use to kissAt least in my dreamsJust let me take my time and reminisceI miss the times that we never hadWhat happened to us we were almost thereWhoever said it's impossible to miss when you never hadNever almost had you

I cannot believe I let you goOr what I should say I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you goI shoulda went out with youI shoulda made you my bop boyYes that's one time I shoulda broke the rulesI shoulda went on a dateShoulda found a way to escapeShoulda turned a almost into If it happend now its to lateHow could I celebrate a love that wasn't realAnd if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)And you seem to be the perfect one for meYou (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)You're all that I ever wantedAnd you're my everything yes its trueBoy its hard to be close to youMy loveI know it may sound crazyBut I'm in love with you

I missed the times that we almost sharedI miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)I miss the times that we use to kissAt least in my dreamsJust let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)I miss the times that we never hadWhat happened to us we were almost thereWhoever said its impossible to miss when you never hadNever, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya

i wish there would not be an almost :/

2008-04-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

Somehow,i've got this fcuking feeling that it gonna happen yet again.I knw i can only blame myself for all this.somehow,i want to be her bestf nw even though i knw it aint possible.to keep feelings in check is painstakingly difficult nwadays.she recovering,i knw.she needs time,i knw.Hell,i knw im the best for her.call me arrogant,but its a fact and i knw it fo sure.for what its worth,i knw this will be all worth it,if it works out that is.If not,damn im in such trouble and i will nvr knw hw i will pick myself up from that.i really can't help but wait ))):

2008-04-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

THE GANG.

THA BIRTHDAY GIRL.

well,first things first,HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR HAZIQAH BTE ZAINOL.DAH BESAR BABI AKU SRG NIE.HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.may all ur wishes and dreams come true in the following year eh girl.MAJULAH SUPERVISOR CSC!

2008-03-31T10:56:00.002+08:00

Somehow i don't really feel good today,i feel so groggy,tired,the fever's making it worst.the whatever-it-is down in my throat is making me cough like im trying to take out my esopahgus?(SCIENCE FAIL.)went MIA from work ystd.its a number of days before they fire me though.HAHAHA.well.school's starting soon so i don't really give a damn if they fire.before anyhting i really have to get myself well today,cos its haziqah's birthday.MAJULAH SUPERVISOR CSC.she wants me to be at her celebration by hook or by crook.EH BABI,IF I GET EVEN WORST BECAUSE OF YOU PAY MY DOCTOR BILLS.SET?&&dear farwrrr sys,please do tell me when you ready?cause i really don't know till when this ordeal has to continue.&& when it is over,please not start another one?OHH OHH i still havent get this stuffs for poly life.damn,

nike airmax
adidas watch
adidas bag
topman & ripcurl tees
levis jeans((;

if you just realize,what i just realised =DDD

2008-03-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

you don't know how painful it was for me to say that to you.but im sorry i was left with no choice.i really couldnt take how our friendship was going further and further apart as days go by.idk if you realised that or not.and we're not like we're used to girl.i simply get upset just to think back how close we used to be and the state we're in nw.im sorry if my words the other have hurt you in one way or anotha,you urself said it that it was very unlike me to say all that.but really cause alot of things has been happening and you haven't taken notice of that.and i too havent heard much frm you.do you realise how happy i was when we met by accident the other day?you don't right? let me tell you I WAS FCUKING HAPPY.it was quite a while since i last saw you and to get a lukewarm reaction frm you,did make me frown a lil bit.that was where i stated thinking,have we really fallen apart?where did it go wrong?has our 9 year friendship gone down the drain?it made me really think girl.that was how bad it was cause ive nvr doubted our friendship,this is the first time i felt so.if you need more time to think im willing to give you all the time in the world to do so.i just want the old you back.and i want it A.S.A.P please? cause i really don't want to lose my childhood superhero just like that.

p.s- i really can't help but wait,for now.

2008-03-24T12:23:00.002+08:00

Three years boys.we have been through thick and thin,despite not having enough matches together,talks of us closing down and moving our sepereate ways.we definitely show that we're team capable of digging deep when the chips are down.On saturday you boys just proved to me DRAGON F.C are alive and kicking and we WILL definitely play together till we grow old.i don't care till we have children or what.you boys will definitely be on my list if i wanted to have a football team.thank you boys.for letting me enjoy my football once again.eventhough we were losing in the first half,we pressed and despite the rain,we conquered our opponents again.im proud of you guys.

Ahmad Bourkadi

Ariff Alif M.Hanafi Ashraf

Bado Cdeac Latiff Syuk

Sam Zul

weiyang,imran.subs

fantastic line-up,fantastic spirit.we are DRAGON F.C =DD

after game programme,decided not to follow the gang to sentosa,decided to go to ayiee's crib with fee,shada,and atyyyyyyyyy.hahaha! and so much for dress code is black and white eh shadaaaaaaaaaa.i was like gg through my wardrobe,wth mayne im suppose to wear.grr!gt to ayiee's crib met her parents and let me tell you,they are the coolest parents you can ever meet.i was a bit taken aback at first but yeah,they are the coolest parents in my view.left at ard 9. then proceeded to adm mac while atyy goes home.and sys,ur advices i will follow aite?hahaha! don't worry i aint giving up anytime.slacked at adm mac with fee and shada till ard 12 then straight home.

not much was done ystd,went to work,left early and go home only to watch......

MANCHESTER UNITED vs LIVERPOOL

3 - 0

dope or what,what did i tell you liverpool fans? liverpool can never beat man utd.get that into your thick skulls. FORZA MANCHESTER UNITED! =DDD

you leave me breathless,i swear you do((:

2008-03-17T11:47:00.001+08:00

my groove hotness hunnies=DD

DOPE KAPER !

2008-03-17T11:04:00.003+08:00

i really miss these people alot)):

&& suddenly i craved for this=DD

hello earthlings=DD haha.im sorry i havent really had the time to update.been busy with work and stuffs.yeah the past week have been jam packed.first thing first,congrats to my groove hotness hunnies,shada & aty for winning 3rd in the smack that 360 comp.i knew you girls will do us proud and well done once again(: i shall update the photos soon.you girls have come a long way and you seriesly deserve whatever accolades you got.and i swear you girls were dope that night! HAHAHAHAHA! DOPE KAPER.well,poly's starting soon.like finally.i really can't stand working everyday anymore.management's getting sucky by the minute and they are having too many restrictions now.i just want to quickly get started with school so yeah,i will like work only during the weekends.i don't really mind getting the small pay just so i can just not see those evil people at work.y not quit you ask me? i myself am not sure y.maybe i need the extra cash maybe?

to:shikin,

im glad if you're finally repenting after whatever that has happened.i really hope youre gonna make some DRASTIC changes before i think of something more DRASTIC to make you change.learn to cope with pressure more positively.what am i here for if ain't gonna ask.correct?and please i don't want anymore nonsense from you.

to:MR CB.

it was nice meeting you again.i ain't gonna say much but to advice you to learn to let go and not create anymore problems for them.if i can accept them why not you? and you keep saying you have let go of them,y are you so contradicting now over whatever you have vowed.and boy,pls look up the dictionary for the meaning of karma.not everything in life goes in our way.try to learn to accept things as it is and move on.its not a matter of how badly you get hit,its how you bounce back as a person after that which shows what kind of a man you are.

till you finally see,that with me it ain't the same.

upsetting.

2008-03-09T13:33:00.002+08:00

i really don't understand why people play football without having to have any intention of injuring their fellow players.be it whether they are of the same race.religion,school,classmates or whatsoever.they still are unable to keep their cool and composure when their team are losing or under pressure.im not trying to aim this at anyone but speaking in general terms from what i see.like i can say in my own experiences,i do hate it when opponents vent their frustrations on me be it late tackles,foul language or anything.i can accept that they might get angry or frustrated but that's just aint the way you handle it.wouldnt it be better if we were to work harder for the team?maybe just a food for thought,will it give you such great satisfaction to injure your opponents just for the sake of venting your anger?ive forgiven them,cause i know how it feels like.but yeah,i just wish they could try to be a little level-headed.i do admit,i sometimes do say foul language in the heat of the moment,but my main intention is to make sure my team stays in track and not get caught out.i just wanted my team to stay on their toes.done,thats my main intention.

Girl I can’t help but wait,

Till you get that with him it don’t change.

Can’t help but wait,

Till you see that with me it ain’t the same.

Can’t help but wait,

Till you see you for what you really are.

Baby girl you are a star.

And I can’t help but wait.

2008-03-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

well,i didn't really have the time to blog ystd so yeah,happy birthday to my dearest sister,ATY(: may all your wishes and dreams come true in the following year alright? && better stop it eh with your this year my birthday is gg to be a boring one.see what you got when you say that?hahaha!i relly wish ur transfer request to RP will be successful sys,i really hope so.i'll pray for ya aite?

i did't sleep a wink ystd due to watching united's game against lyon and yeah,i knew i had to work the next day yet i still managed to not sleep.at ard 7 am i realised i dozed off and woke up ard 9.15 and just knew i was going to be effing late for work.hahaha! i just quickly dressed and off to work wearing flipflops.when i got to work,idk wht came to my manager's mind today,"whoever who is wearing slippers please step out now and go home."i was like fuck,waste my damn fare.i was okay with them making this rules but yeah if you're gonna do it,then make damn sure you're gonna be consistent abt it and not close one eye when tomorrow comes and some of them still wear slippers.let me ask,if there were like 20 people who were wearing slippers,would you have asked all of them home? you won't right? just because only like 3-4 people do it you have the guts to do so.so be consistent.

*i swear i need to find myself a girlfriend quick.HAHA!

2008-03-03T14:13:00.002+08:00

Happy 2nd birthday boy(:

happy birthday to the most nonsensical yet the most adorable 2 year old ive met mohamed faiq bin fadil.may you grow up to be a good man(:

i've been pretty darn lazy to go to work this few days.i was suppose to go to work ystd yet i took the day off.gosh,its been 3 days since i worked.damn,i am that lazy now.haha!

nurul sys,ive told ya a million times i treat you like my very own sister already,so if i feel sumthing not right is being said by sumone,you will have my back.that's for sure! no more thanks between us aight sys?see ya soon ciara.

DFC brother's,we are buying a new jersey,umbro.colours,blue,black,white.50 bucks.i need ya'all to reply me A.S.A.P.those with financial difficulties tell me personally too.

to raily,yesterday very touching hor! but i won kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan~? ohh come on.i told ya i was never gonna lose.hahaha! so you betta write one paragraph abt me quick! fuhh,two victories in a row.xP!

you make me better(:

2008-03-01T01:06:00.002+08:00

gyeaaaah,today was pretty awesome.even though work was being quite a bitch today,i still managed to scrape through another day at work.I didn't sleep a wink yesterday,so my head was really really heavy when i gt to work.even coffee didn't have any effect.just went through the motions and ended the day at 5.met ziq,colleen,mai,S.W and the girls's classmates.ziq had date today to follow.he was kinda cool.when to far east,had late lunch and off to lido to watch the eye.pretty boring laaaaaaa the movie.the story line was so predictable.mai and colleeen was closing their ears and eyes half the time.idk what was so frightening abt the movie,it made more sleepy ader lah.hahaha! && to raily,im sorrrrrrrrry.HAHAHA! i had to cheat to win! HAHAHA! i was never ever gonna lose sia that game!HAHAHA!
to my beloved brother,you know who you are.come on bro.get in in ur thick skull.ITS OVER.it doesnt matter if you feel cheated or whatever it is.im tired of you telling me the same thing over and over again.just accept things as it is,please? youre 18 bro,not 38.there's more to life.don't tell me because of this youre gonna stay like this forever?having those hatred feelings towards them.to tell you the truth,im lazy to entertain ur
"mengadu nasib" already bro.please uh.let it go for once.i now you're still reeling frm the incident but yeah,be a man.move on.no use crying and mopping about it anymore.there is more to life bro,trust me.&& don't worry, i currently not having a gf,don't worry abt me getting hurt in relationships.im sorry but ive to tell you that i accept my two bestfriend's relationship.im happy for them in fact.please bro.im tired of this issue aready,everyone else i feel has resolved their issues,but you bro?i still think you're stuck somewhere.wake up bro,wake up.these are life lessons swallow and move on.im sorry bro if i dissapoint you.but i do support them.i have my own relationship probs bro,bt i don't let them affect me so badly.please bro,wake up.its time you wake up.i know how it feels to lose to someone better bro.ive gone through it tons of times.still? am i not still the same aleeeve? think bro,if others can,why not you?

you have my blessings,im happy for you.good luck(:

my girl gotta bestfriend.

2008-02-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

gyeaaah,just finished chatting with numbskull.played this little game with her,haha! we had to write aleeeve<3 raily<3 vice versa on our friends link.whose,blog gets tegur'ed first wins.hahaha! the punishment, to post i love you aleeeve/raily on their respective friendster's for 3 days!.HAHAHA! i had to win this game,and im sorry numbskull,i did cheat.HAHAH! i asked sam to tag quickly.i know youre gonna kill me.but come on,i nw you love me kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan numbskull.HAHAHA! three days eh!ingat pantang!good luck for your job interview tomorrow numbskull.afta three months off becoming a maid then you wanna work ahh! haha. && yes nurses make me drool,why?cannot?hahaha! go ask which boy disagrees with me?he's either gay,or not a guy at all.currently listening to this song by ray lavender,my girl gotta bestfriend.the lyrics its self makes my blood boil.no wonder girls don't trust their boyfriends nowadays.very inethical."having two chicks is better than having no chicks" wthhhhhhhhhhhh~ no wonder im single for three years.hahahaha! i'll leave you guys to probe.

why does your pride make you run and hide?are you that afraid of me?

2008-02-27T16:57:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings(: this week has so far went okay.i know its only wednesday,but yeah ive enjoyed my week so far.i wanna extend my congrats to my dearest systaaaa nurul for finally landing herself a job.like finally sia,ive been working for like 3 and-the-half months and she's just starting.but its okay as long you give me discounts when i go there aiteeee systaaaaaaaaa?hahahhaah!this week i have beeen farrrr to lazy to work,i really dunno why.despite not going for any school team training sessions,i just find it difficult to just work long hours.maybe im not really interested in working like before anymore?idk.or maybe its just the frequent pains on my back that i have been suffering is just making it difficult for me to work.but that shouldnt be a excuse.A customer made my day today,i shall show the convo.

me: thank you for calling pizza hut blablablabla.
cust X: errr,can speak malay?
me:boleh2.cik nk order aper?
custX:errrr pizza yg ader cheese yg terklua-klua tu aper?
me:*trying to hold my laughter* itu cheezy lava blablabla.
custX:kenaperlah dorang letak cheeze gitu eh?tk muak ker?
me:sayer pon tk tahu cik.*trying to hold again.*

then i soon took her orders down,blablabla....

me:total,harge 40++++ eh cik,order will arrive dlm pukul 2.30 gitu.
custX:tkper2 jgn rush,nnt rider tu jatuh bukan pizza cik jer yg rosak,nnt dier pon rosak.
me:HAHAHAHAHAHA!*at this point i really couldnt help but to laugh*
me:okay,nnt sayer bilang.hahaha!
custX:namer nyer saper nie?
me:alif cik.
custX:okay terima kasih eh alif,jgn serik eh ambik order cik.cik nie kecoh sikit.HAHAHAHA!

If only all customers are like her,i will totally enjoy my job a million times more .these are the kind of customers which make me enjoy my work,not the kind who just thinks youre a nuisance and as if we're trying to make life difficult for them.heh heh.well,i still wanna resign but im trying to bide my time to find the perfect time to quit.

i need to know whether i have a fighting chance.maybe just one shot ?

in a fix,

2008-02-25T03:06:00.002+08:00

i swear to god i hate it when i request for my work schedule to have off days on particular days they will make me work on it.i got so pissed off.don't give me nonsense that we don't have enough manpower,you hire us for peanuts,don't tell me bullshit.why can't they just get it in their head i want my offdays to be on monday and saturday?geees.ive been requesting yet the same thing happens.come on maaaaaayne,give me my day off when its due.i regret gg to work today,i knew my back spasm still haven really recovered yet,still on chairs seem to be sitting on rocks nw.i just feel pain all over.idk why this is happening.i think its a knock or just some kind of bruise,I HOPE:/
well,i still am contemplating whether to follow colleen and gang to ECP,or follow sam on a shopping trip.i really wanna go on both,but yeah i really need to do some shopping maaaaayne.yes colleen will go,org anti-sosial.HAHAHA! im not anti-SOSIAL okaaaaay?!
gosh,the pains coming back,till here yaw.

i'd love to make her change her mind(:

my bad.

2008-02-23T01:35:00.002+08:00

I think i slowly gonna lose out yet again,but i can't really blame anyone but myself.i knew my past mistakes yet i keep repeating them everytime faced with it.it seems,i keep facing the same scenarios yet the same outcomes every single time.i know im not the only human with problems but yeah,this has been bugging me for a while and i just cant seem to get it right,to really find that perfect solution and settle for once and for all.well,i knw im only human and can't be making inch perfect decisions all the time,but in this subject,why can't i be making at least more positive decisions which will lead to me having happier moments in life.fate,just be a little fair will you? please? i would get on my knees if i could.people say its simple,but matters of the heart are never simple nor easy to understand,it requires deep constant thinking while having an open mind to other avenues which made lead to the problem being solved or just making it into a larger problem.i am lucky to be surrounded by people who care how i feel and i appreciate their constant advices and opinions,but may be i have to think,there is a limit to everything.may be im wrong?maybe im right.i'll have to prove it on my own that i can do it.maybe i long for a companion?maybe not? idk.it remains to be seen,i trust fate to do that for me but maybe im trusting fate too much too and i just hope it wouldnt be too cruel this time round,cos i aint taking another step back afta what ive gone through before.sometimes doing the right thing aint doing the right thing.i made mistakes,gg to fast,falling to deep, these are the usual mistakes,but who doesnt do this odd mistakes mayne?all of use surely must have gone through it before,but for me,maybe ive just step into that zone to little to many of occasions.having a fighting spirit is one thing,not knwing when to give up when its truly over is pure stupidity.everyone might thing im all football,nothing else.but they are totally wrong.im not all football,thats a fact.i hope,i could give you time to heal,but you are still hoping for your past, i will respect it.cause you deserve my utmost respect.trust me i'll be okay.just go on girl,seeing you happy will be my biggest achievement.youre way too fly to be sad abt things like this and you deserve to be the happiest girl and no one should ever take it away fro you.and, i chose colleen because colleen macloughlin's wayne rooney gf,and my football idol, I KNWWWWW you will go,footballl againnnnnnnn.

And i know this much is true,

baby you have become my addiction,

i'm so strung out on you,i can barely even move,

but i like it,because its all because of you. -neyo.

2008-02-20T23:09:00.001+08:00

aleeve,really.If it doesn't go your way again,you only have yourself to blame.)))))))))))))))))))))))))):

colleeen(:

2008-02-20T09:18:00.000+08:00

yes,i woke up because of JAE,then it goes"congrats mohamed alif bin zahari.youve been accepted to go into RP,sports and leisure management"i was likelooking at it with one eye open,trying to make believe i was really getting myself into poly.HAHA!amazing yes i knw(: though,i was quite dissapointed that i couldntget myself into the course i really wanted,early childhood education)))):so yeah,i really can't wait to start poly,i wanna quit my job soon and start concentrating back to studies.ohh yes,miss "colleen macloughlin" too get into the same institute,so yeah i was cheered up by thatso yeah,heh.im really looking forward to that,though i wanna keep things under wraps for nowcos i have too?hahaha.naaaaah,id just slowly slowly wait.hahaha!nurul,i knw you will go,alepppp,don't macam paham please? and yes, to my dearest sys rawr,don't be agitated over the results aite?you knw come rain or shine i will back you up.you've knwn for like more than a decade?you knw i will be there,so take it easy aite?

make it work(:

You Understand Me At Least You Say You Do Lately Thats Enough For Me Looking For Perfect Surrounded By Artificial Your The Closest Thing To Real I've Seen Im Sure Everyone Has Their Problems Thats A Given Yours Are The Easiest To Tolerate This Wasnt What We Was Wanting How We're Living Lets Take This Good Enough And Turn It To Great Baby Understand...
This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl But We Gotta Make It Work We Gotta Make It Work..
Sometimes I Love You More Than You'll Ever Know Other Times You Get On My Nerves That's Just Reality No, It Can't Always Be Kisses, Hugs, And Beautiful Words
You Was Looking For Your Friends What You Found Is A Partner With Potential
And No, I Know I Ain't Perfect But I'm Around Girl Time And Patience Is Essential Baby Realize...
This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl But We Gotta Make It Work We Gotta Make It Work...
Thick And Thin, The Bad Outweighs The Good Sometimes That Doesn't Mean We're 'spose To Give It Up My Problems Are Yours,And Yours Are Mine
This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl But We Gotta Make It Work We Gotta Make It Work...

2008-02-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

Even superstars get dissapointed.

i'm so bored at home that i've decided to try the bulletin questions thingy.HAHA!

what a boyfriend should do. . .

1.when she walks away from you. . .

-pull her hand and hold on tight?

2.when she stares at my mouth. . .

-is there like food stuck in my teeth?HAHA!

3.when she pushes or hits you. . .

-give her one big pinch on the cheeks[:

4.when she starts cursing at you. . .

-say,"i nk ketuk kepale you boleh?.suker2 hati maki!"

5.when she goes quiet. . .

-ask her whats wrong,and persuade her to confess.

6.when she ignores you. . .

-cry.

7.when she looks her worst on a particular day. . .

-only an idiot will tell the truth[:

8.when you see her start crying. . .

-give her the biggest && tightest hug i can.

9.when she lays her head on my shoulders. . .

-hold her hands & promise her the world.

10.when she teases you. . .

-tell her how her nose looks like an onion.

11.when she tells you a secret. . .

-ahhhh!mengumpat banyak-banyak!HAHAHA!

12.when she misses you. . .

-i missed you too pantat[:

13.when you break her heart. . .

-tell the whole world im the biggest mother fucker on earth.

14.when she said its over. . .

cry,what else?

15.When she runs up at you crying, thefirst thing you say is. . .

i love you,i am you guardian angel[:

2008-02-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

remember your roots.from your roots you will arrive,and from your roots too you'll depart.

dear friend,our sole intention of telling you off is not that we're envy of you,we're jealous of you or anything.i swear to god i know you have the ability to go far.but really whats talent without any education to fall back on my dear friend? i'm not trying to impose anything because really i don't wish to make things worse.i accept facts yeah i don't have such talent like you do.i know i am not such a fantastic of an athlete like you do.but the way you put people down sometimes is simple unacceptable.you may think everyone is like me who can take your critisicm lightly.it may have hurt me abit but i took whatver you said and i simply swallowed.self denial is a very bad characteristic my friend.you better do something about it.i swear i don't wish to talk about this to you anymore because it seems whatever we say tou you,you seem to be taking it lightly so i do not see any point in pursuing.all i can say is,if you think whatever we just said to you was bullshit,then so be it.just practice what you preach and not the otherwise.

2008-02-05T12:59:00.000+08:00

footballers do have love in them(:

Dear,2008 really haven't you done enough damage to relationships.we're only into your 2nd month and already you've been up to no good.please change for the better?i really hope so before i get myself into a relationship.to mr chris brown,im really sorry if i cannot be your listening ear everytime.because really,i have my own problems.you may see me as a boy with sucha happy life,carefree of any problems.but really,i have my own set of problems that this poor shoulders have to carry.call me a bad friend or anything cause really yow,i ain't no superman.

thankyou god for letting me have the opportunity to make another match for DFC cause it really was nice to play football back with those crazy bunch of boys again afta sucha long break.&& did we battered them or what on saturday.DOPE KAPER(: ahmad bourkadi,md.hanafi,md.afiq,sidiq,zulfiqri,syukreyy,md.khairul,sharel samat,nabil,md ashraf.THANK YOU BOYS[:

looking for perfect,surrounded by artificial.

cause,you're the closest thing to real i see[:

2008-01-31T01:22:00.000+08:00

life really leaves you reeling when you're down,i tried playing captain marvel to everytime.sometimes i wish they could understand how i feel at times.even so the limit they could possibly do is spare a thought for me.i want everone me to be happy,be it they have relationship,school,family etc. problems i always try to give a listening ear and some advice.whether it is useful or not,im not truly sure.but deep down i know i was sincere in helping and not just trying to act like a caring friend and give stupid advices with doesnt really make sense.i just wondered if i were to be down and out,would you people who i used to help be there for me?or will i be left stranded? really not that im not sincere in helping.but really it strikes me sometimes,i help people,but do they actually know how much i have done for them?i know i may "act hero" sometimes by helping everyone who needs help.but the one's that asked for my help are really my close ones.how can i just turn my back on them and tell them,sorry i cannot help you? it just doesnt feel right.dearest sister,i swear i wasn't angry with you at all even though you raised your voice at me just now.it's just that im dissapointed that you get yourself into so much trouble.&& i really wanted to help.i know so much things are happening at the moment.i really hope you don't forget your roots.y'know i love you to bits.so please,wise up,you're a big girl now.it carries responsiblities and im sure you're mature enough to carry that burden.if you need me y'knw im always there for ya.to my friends who i wasn't able to help,im sorry guys.y'knw ive been busy with work and other activities.i really hope you guys can understand and im sorry if i can't make everyone happy.im just not superman,thats all)):

looking for perfect,but surrounded by artificial.

2008-01-28T16:16:00.000+08:00

First of all,thank you god.you made me see my mum smile for me[:
I did quite okay for my O'level results considering the amount of time left for me to study after i finally woke up to realise.I swore i think the whole hall saw me cry,&& damn that wasn't in the script sia.I totally just burst into tears of joy seeing that i actually was able to force my butt into poly considering so many teachers condemning me to fail.I proved everyone wrong.I proved i was able to overcome failures and to push myself to the extreme.But what really made me tear hard was the fact i passed math,like finally i did.&& i remember the last time i passed math was PSLE.gosh,that was sucha long time ago.Maybe i just have this thing to perform on huge occasions(:i really wanna thank mr ravin,if not for him i wouldnt have enough guts to try maths at all.ms gomez for giving me the drive to prove her wrong that her class can get a distinction for english[:thank you very much the both of you.

you're the closest thing to real i see[:

2008-01-24T01:09:00.001+08:00

HOHO!,1.30 am && still wide awake.i really cannot stop myself from thinking what my results will bw tomorrow.god help mw i just wisgh to put a smile back on my mum's face.please help me achieve it.i tried so damn hard && pls just let me be successful.too many people have high hopes on me and i really do not want to disappoint any of them.especially nenek.mama.abg nazri.dad.

god help me,please.

&& thank you ati, shada.both of you truly made my day today.i totally relieved my stress levels today because of you two.

DOPE KAPERRRRRRR!

13 hours 20 mins left. . . .

2008-01-20T01:59:00.000+08:00

Not being able to play football regualrly after o'levels has certainly taken its toll on me,with and i swear all the muscles on my legs are aching at this very minute.played at ITE dover.As usual,high tackles.&& again,i didn't use any protection.damn.Now i know why mr raziff keeps ranting at me for not wearing them.HAHA.and for goodness sakes can someone please confirm wimme the actual date of results.i'm oh soo fcuking worried here.some say 24,some 28.EXACT DATE PLEASE.&& momma,thanks for the new slippers eh?saaaaayaaaaang kamu.

god,help me.i really wish to tell her whatever i want.

2008-01-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

It was a bittersweet day for me,i shan't explain on the bitter part but i'll definitely say on the good part.Went to starbucks to help ciara(; with her

school work.well ticked her off by forcing her to do alot of exercises and made her memorise her SS notes.

well,at least you remember how to do balancing equations don't you ciara((:

how i wish she knows how i feel && she is willing to do something about it):

2008-01-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

i have been seeing too many couples these few days.envy you may say.i do admit to being envious or you may say jealous.who wouldn't correct me if i'm wrong.to have that special someone to share those precious little moments to share with,to have that special someone who will always be there for you come rain or shine,to have that someone who fights for your honour no matter what.but in the light of having those things in mind,i may have forgotten the ugly side of it.Affairs,fights,etc. they can just seem to be too much to handle.it can certainly make someone be on the verge of giving up all together.envy i maybe,but tell me who really has the perfect relationship without having to go through fights with your partner? even husbands and wives have fights but still make up in the end of the day.to say i love not having a relationship with that special someone might be an understatement as i really do enjoy having that special someone but to have to go through the pains alll over again is what i really fear the most.so i'm now caught in between two minds.i help people in advices about matters of the heart,i myself cannot seem to find the right formula for myself.that i truly am ashamed off.

And a thousand times I found myself asking, "Why? Why?"

2008-01-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

I have yet to fuly justify the reason why i got myself a job.For the money?For the experience?To prevent myself from rotting away at home?All of a sudden i have this lonely feeling which suddenly strikes me.I really miss the people i used to share laughters,jokes and nonsensical pranks with.People like nurul,fee,weiyang,shaiful yeah this people.They are the ones who still walk beside me despite all the problems be it school-related or relationships wise they are the ones who manage to help no matter how difficult it may seem to be.I miss you guys terribly)):
o'level results is just days away i just can't stop thinking what if this ,what if that.what if i don't make it.what if i'm only good enough for ITE.Not that i'm being stereotype saying ITE is not good,only pressure for me to peform and attain a diploma is just too much.days away,damn.&& babi lembab i miss you lah giler.HAHAHA((:

2008-01-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

I'm so into what you giving and it feel so good to me
You're beautiful and critical it's hard to live without you, baby
When I wake up in the morning all I want to see is you
Heaven's blessing that he sent me unconditional and true
Girl you mean the world to me and I hope you understand
I will give you anything and I'll do the best I can to make you see what I see
One word
Is all I need to say exactly how I feel
One word
A single word that's from the heart and keep sit real
One word
And baby I know this one fits you to a tee
One word
All I can say is amazing
Always there when i was going through all kinds of changes
You kept me lifted, said I'm gifted and you know I'm gonna make it
So when you're tired and frustrated you can always count on me
Girl I love ya and I want ya to know I'll be all you need
Girl you gave the world to me and you made me understand
You would give me anything and you do the best you can
You are what I hope to be
One word
Is all I need to say exactly how I feel
One word
A single word that's from the heart and keeps it real
One word
And baby I know this one fits you to a tee
One word
All I can say is amazing
One Word
I just want to celebrate you, baby
And thank the Lord for sending you down to me
And your love is the reason why I believe
You're amazing
So amazing
Just amazing to me
One word
One word
One word
One word
One word
One word
One word
One word
One word
All I can say is amazing
One word
Is all I need to say exactly how I feel
One word
A single word that's from the heart and keeps it real
One word
And baby I know this one fits you to a tee
One word
All I can say is amazing

If only i could sing this lovely words into your ears(:

2008-01-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

my new girlfriend can?

MELLLLLLLLLLLT((:

Uhh,so special((:

2008-01-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

First of all,i wanna extend my congrats to kakak liana and abg salleh for getting married last week.It seems like yesterday that you were the big sister who i look up to.You make the perfect wife aiite?

I know that this will take time.Don't worry,i've got your back.&& im gg to get you the 6 points((:

My own,che'nelle.

you got baby,you've got that good stuff,good love put it one me can't get enough((:

2008-01-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Now,i'm really starting to miss school.i truly miss recess.hahaha.i really don't know why.but somehow or another i miss the atmosphere you get.as much as i want to turn back the clock,i know i can't do that.ciara,sorry eh cannot watch the next pussycat doll with ya)); but i'll make it up by wearing a tutu.SET?HAHAHA!

prolly wouldn't be this way.

eventful 2007((:

2008-01-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

Well,2007 has finally come to a close && what a hell of a year it has been.Too many sweet memoirs and bitter ones to accompany it.At least i kept to one resolution which i made last year which was to work hard for my o'levels && and not waste my chance.well,maybe i have done that but results remain to be seen.Football wise,i was able to lead my school into the quarter finals of the north zone championships as captain.That was definitely a huge plus last year.the one thing i regret about last year's football,was not being able to consistently create matches for DFC.It seems everyone is simply too busy now to play for DFC now and i finally came into realisation my brainchild was about to shut down.soon,R.I.P DFC-2005/2007.Maybe one last win before we close for good?god help me make that into reality.
Love wise,eventful it was.stupid of me maybe?being too naive?trusting words which was never suppose to be believed?I really bite on the poison apple last year.Going depressed over a girl definitely was the lowest point of the year.So i am really gonna make sure no girl is going to do that,&& i'll do wahtever in my power not to let that happen eveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer~ again((:

new year,new ambitions.new life,new fantasies((:

2007-12-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

i'm super sorrrrrrrrry for not updating like how i promised to when i started out blogging.But,events at work,football and home just takes the time away to do anything else than rest and get ready for work.well,for miss "Z" i really don't know when will i ever be ready for you.i know you said i could take my time,but really i don't want to dissapoint you if my decision does not coincide with what you wish for.But your sincerity really shines through and i can really see that and i really appreciate it.Sometimes i wonder am i worth the trouble youre taking?
To football next,like finally i'm slowly regaining my fitness back,playing with the csc boys was fun && i could show them what i'm capable of.yesterday definitely was superb.to liyana my good buddy,if you know who ever comes back,help me kill her can?thanks eh sys((:

wherever you go,i always know((:

rimas

2007-12-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

Pernahkah kau mengerti,
caraku memujukmu,
Pernahkah kau hargai,
cara ku mencintaimu.

-rimas.

How true this words can be((:

2007-12-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

Today definitely wouldn't have been fun without the company of new friends like haziqah and gang.They invited me along for lunch and we ate alot at pizza hut and paid a bomb for the bill.HAHA.they are totally the funniest bunch of people i have ever met from their nosensical stories to their farts and burps, && mind you all three of them are girls.so go figure((:
thanks girls for the fun day at work((:

i want to see us holding hands walking on the beach our toes in the sand((:

)):

2007-12-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

I swear to god i hate working on public holidays lah oiiiiiiiii! My family all went out visiting to atuk's && nenek's house.They get to enjoy nenek's lontong and there i was taking people's order.GRR! i was really wondering why are there so many malays having their orders taken when its hari raya?! For goodness sakes don't they have lontong,rendang whatsoever to eat?so much for calling it hari raya haji and celebrating it once a year when we still enjoy having pizzas instead of our own traditional delicacies.I really miss nenek alot.I've been too busy with work && all to be able to visit her even for hari raya today)): Well nenek,i promise i'll make it up to you kay nenek sayang?HEEEEEEE((: && don't worry you will get something from me when i get my first pay okay? I LOVE YOU LAAAAAAH NENEK((:

Who is she?Who is she,who's gonna complete my world((:

bad day.

2007-12-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

WE LOST.but what can i say, we didn't train,we didn't play as a team together before today so actually i shund't expect much.But really if we had chances to train together i really think we can make it.but really whats the point of letting national players play in this tournament when normal players like us who plays under blocks and normal street soccer courts don't have a chance to show what we can do when they end up being int the semis and finals all the time.Where does that leave us normal players?who don't have daily training.A level playing field is the definitely needed.no wonder we aren't finding enough young talent.because people like them stop us from moving up the ladder to greater heights.For the team,credits to khairul(fee's cousin) fantastic shot stopper.good on you.maybe that nike slipper is your own consolation prize.Apart from that,yeah3 days left to pay daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

*i owe shada && nurul a pizza hut trip,
*i owe mum hp bills,
* need new pair of shoes,jeans,shirts,
*nike bag((:

As for little miss *goal attack* you seem busy nowadays.well, i miss chatting with ya basically.To make matters simple.MAKE YOURSELF UN-BUSY CAN?HAHAHA!.

the end.

2007-12-17T14:25:00.000+08:00

I wish you luck,now that you've moved on from me.Well,basically thats probably all i can say actually.Again my best wasn't your best so. . . yeah.truly dumbfounded probably my mistake.idk yaw.everything i do seemed to backfire.i know you've found someone new so do what you should do((:

NOW I REALLY NEED LITTLE MISS *GOAL ATTACK*

sunday bliss((:

2007-12-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

aku punyer boncet!

The started off with me being angry for not having enough sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.I haven't really had enough of that recently.Woke up got angry,had shower,went out.First breakfast,then off to escape.Don't know for what reason,momma decided we should have a family day and go escape.Well it went out pretty good.haha.Momma not riding much but still pretty sporting on this occasion.To cap off the fantastic day,my beloved MANCHESTER UNITED BEAT LIVERFOOOOOOOL!((:

i still want little miss *goal attack*((:

2007-12-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

i'm so gg to shop && shop && shop && shop till i drop when i get may pay man.Day by day the number of clothes that i can wear is decreasing.WARDROBE CRISIS.grr!.Shopping list is slowly but surely mounting as if im earning like 1 or 2k a month.hahaha!well i better be a spendtrift from now on before i suffer when i finally step into the working world.

-topman shirts,
-everlast shoes,
-levis jeans,
-adidas bag,
-nokia N95,

Anybody get me one of this. . . . i love you lahh oii!((:

i still want little miss *goal attack*((:

maybe you're done with me?

2007-12-15T14:34:00.000+08:00

Okay feeling abit weird today.i don't really know where i went wrong with you,but what i know is that ive done my very best and maybe my best wasn't enough yet again?really.idk where i go wrong that to suffer the same consequences all the time.so yeah maybe you'll be happy with your life && i'll just continue with whatever i have now.so yeah all i can say is good luck:X

I still want my little miss *goal attack*((:

2007-12-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today at work definitely another day of experience for me,talking to french/german customers can be a joy but a headache also laaaaaah oii.With their heavy accent and slang no wonder my new friends, hidayat&& afifah needed help.Pity afifah,she had a torrid time understanding them.So yeah today was cool,sonia released me early((; futsal tournament is like 4 days away and i had the cheek to eat pizzas.Bad shape,no fitness.DIE ALEEVE DIE.So much for wanting to win first place.XD.

i want little miss "goal attack"?

blearghhh.

2007-12-14T15:17:00.000+08:00

i would have given you all of my heartbut there's someone who's torn it apartand he's taken just all that i havebut if you want i'll try to love againbaby, i'll try to love again, but i know...the first cut is the deepestbaby i knowthe first cut is the deepestbut when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursedwhen it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...i still want you by my sidejust to help me dry the tears that i've criedand i'm sure gonna give you a tryif you want i'll try to love again, (try)baby, i'll try to love again, but i know...OOHHH,the first cut is the deepestbaby i knowthe first cut is the deepestbut when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursedbut when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...i still want you by my sidejust to help me dry the tears that i've criedbut i'm sure gonna give you a trycuz if you want i'll try to love again(try to love again, try to love again)baby, i'll try to love again but i know, OOHHH....the first cut is the deepestbaby i knowthe first cut is the deepestwhen it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursedwhen it comes to lovin' me, he's worstOOHHH, the first cut is the deepestbaby i know (baby i know)the first cut is the deepest try to love again...

Here i am,10 mins before gg to work being emo and thinking what to wear to work.RAAAAAAIN serieeeeeeeeesly,GO AWAAAAAAAAAAAAY)):

newbie((:

2007-12-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

Like finally,a new blog.HAHA.okay idk why im so over excited but it seems like cool gitu.okay abit lame i know.so yeah will be updating as frequent as i can.so yeah do drop by and comment.to you-know-who,maybe this will be an avenue for me to tell you how i feel alright.for now,with you being busy and all it feels empty seriesly,but what can i do right?i'll just try to wait till you ask me not to anymore.maybe this is the only way?i guess so.

2007-12-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

THANKS FOR THE BLOG TASHAH!

YOU ROCK ROCK ROCK ROCK ROCK.