Name: aleeve
Age: 17

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I think i slowly gonna lose out yet again,but i can't really blame anyone but myself.i knew my past mistakes yet i keep repeating them everytime faced with it.it seems,i keep facing the same scenarios yet the same outcomes every single time.i know im not the only human with problems but yeah,this has been bugging me for a while and i just cant seem to get it right,to really find that perfect solution and settle for once and for all.well,i knw im only human and can't be making inch perfect decisions all the time,but in this subject,why can't i be making at least more positive decisions which will lead to me having happier moments in life.fate,just be a little fair will you? please? i would get on my knees if i could.people say its simple,but matters of the heart are never simple nor easy to understand,it requires deep constant thinking while having an open mind to other avenues which made lead to the problem being solved or just making it into a larger problem.i am lucky to be surrounded by people who care how i feel and i appreciate their constant advices and opinions,but may be i have to think,there is a limit to everything.may be im wrong?maybe im right.i'll have to prove it on my own that i can do it.maybe i long for a companion?maybe not? idk.it remains to be seen,i trust fate to do that for me but maybe im trusting fate too much too and i just hope it wouldnt be too cruel this time round,cos i aint taking another step back afta what ive gone through before.sometimes doing the right thing aint doing the right thing.i made mistakes,gg to fast,falling to deep, these are the usual mistakes,but who doesnt do this odd mistakes mayne?all of use surely must have gone through it before,but for me,maybe ive just step into that zone to little to many of occasions.having a fighting spirit is one thing,not knwing when to give up when its truly over is pure stupidity.everyone might thing im all football,nothing else.but they are totally wrong.im not all football,thats a fact.i hope,i could give you time to heal,but you are still hoping for your past, i will respect it.cause you deserve my utmost respect.trust me i'll be okay.just go on girl,seeing you happy will be my biggest achievement.youre way too fly to be sad abt things like this and you deserve to be the happiest girl and no one should ever take it away fro you.and, i chose colleen because colleen macloughlin's wayne rooney gf,and my football idol, I KNWWWWW you will go,footballl againnnnnnnn.