Thursday, January 31, 2008, 1:22 AM
life really leaves you reeling when you're down,i tried playing captain marvel to everytime.sometimes i wish they could understand how i feel at times.even so the limit they could possibly do is spare a thought for me.i want everone me to be happy,be it they have relationship,school,family etc. problems i always try to give a listening ear and some advice.whether it is useful or not,im not truly sure.but deep down i know i was sincere in helping and not just trying to act like a caring friend and give stupid advices with doesnt really make sense.i just wondered if i were to be down and out,would you people who i used to help be there for me?or will i be left stranded? really not that im not sincere in helping.but really it strikes me sometimes,i help people,but do they actually know how much i have done for them?i know i may "act hero" sometimes by helping everyone who needs help.but the one's that asked for my help are really my close ones.how can i just turn my back on them and tell them,sorry i cannot help you? it just doesnt feel right.dearest sister,i swear i wasn't angry with you at all even though you raised your voice at me just now.it's just that im dissapointed that you get yourself into so much trouble.&& i really wanted to help.i know so much things are happening at the moment.i really hope you don't forget your roots.y'know i love you to bits.so please,wise up,you're a big girl now.it carries responsiblities and im sure you're mature enough to carry that burden.if you need me y'knw im always there for ya.to my friends who i wasn't able to help,im sorry guys.y'knw ive been busy with work and other activities.i really hope you guys can understand and im sorry if i can't make everyone happy.im just not superman,thats all)):
looking for perfect,but surrounded by artificial.